It's resonated with me again how much over many years I have regarded this as my world, accountable to me. It was full of things I found unacceptable, about which I would rage repeatedly. The fact that I couldn't control these things did not stop me from acting like it was my world, and that it should obey my whims. I continued to live with the upset and unhappiness of a world that should obey me, but wouldn't.
Releasing the world to God's control has been a major step in my growth toward serenity and contentedness. I understand that He allows many things, by many people, many of which are not OK, but I have started to let go of the subconscious attitude that I am the one who should be dictating the actions and outcomes around me. I have decided that I would rather be contented than have the delusion that I make the rules. Sometimes just reminding myself of that is enough to get me out of the rage that I feel building when something doesn't go my way.
No comments:
Post a Comment