When I got back into the fellowship, my new sponsor wanted me to work the steps as he had done and his “pack” had done. I had grown up in the church, gone to churchy college, and I was not convinced I needed to go through a workbook to realize the points of Step 1 and 2. I was talked into it by some people who were nice enough to convince me instead of telling me to go along with orders or get lost. I decided to go along with the local program.
I’m not convinced I learned much from the work on Steps 1 and 2, and I didn’t feel any differently after taking Step 3. I think now, though, that they were important things to do, not because I needed the intellectual input, but because going along with what had worked for others was an action of willingness. I was able to (sort of) put aside my will and follow directions. It was beginning practice in setting aside what I want and making a practice of doing what I need to even if I don’t particularly feel like it. That has been key in my being able to get better in a lot of areas.
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